Im having serious major fondue craving. Though its so damn easy to make, I'd rather go out n eat it. The feeling's juz different. N becos its exam period so I hardly have time to make it to town. So after exams, Im gonna make fondue n have a small gathering with my frenz. Hahaha.. Went school for BCA test today. Quite ok. Access was rather tough but excel had a higher weightage in the paper so I guess I will pass. After test, Shidah (Syah's fren) came to eat our 'famous' chicken chop. Lol. Though its nice, it isnt that nice to the extent of coming all the way to NP juz to eat it. But Shidah said it was not bad. =P Went to JP with them n Wei Han cos its Hakim's bday tmr n we wanted to get a bday card for him n let the whole class write nice things on it. Tmr got bbq at albert's place to celebrate Hakim's 18th bday! Yeah~ Missed the time at the class chalet.. During dinner, Wei Han blurted out something damn funny tt drove the 3 of us gers crazy. We burst out in laughter at the same time! But I shall spare him the agony by not revealing wat he said. Hahaha. Den when we took the mrt home, he had to go for his driving lesson. But tt goondu forgot to bring his booklet!!! He already alighted at the mrt station den made a detour back into the train. Hahaha dumb dumb.. So he had to rush home to take it n rush back down to BBDC. So funny!!! Talking about birthday, it was Nana Jie's bday ytd (21/3). My dear Nana jie went to Langkawi with her bf to celebrate her bday n juz returned last nite. Sweet rite? =) So I hereby wish her a Happy Belated Birthday!!!! Hahaha Nana jie, though I wish u already, I still wanna make known ur bday to all my readers. Hurhurhur... u guys reading, better rmb 21st march, every year!! Oh ya, a continuation from my previous entry.. My mum is back in S'pore! She did enjoy herself over there but somehow she couldnt take her mind off on family matters. Haiz. But at least she had some time to relax, otherwise she'd be so stressed up. Sis n I decided to give her a surprise by appearing at the airport to fetch her home. The moment we saw mummy at the arrival hall, we started laughing. Her face was flushed up. She had champagne on the plane. Enjoy lor. Business class some more. She had 1 room n 1 King-sized bed to herself at Intercontinental Hote, Jakartal!! I was so damn jealous! So nice of her to tell us that she was having hydrotherapy or watever massage over there. Jealous jealous jealous!!! Ok, back to airport scene. My mum gets red easily when she consumes liquor. Imagine a tomato-face woman walking around at the Duty-Free shops at the airport. Hilarious! Tt's y me n sis couldnt stop laughing. Back at home. She was showing off those stuff that she bought. Haha abit paiseh to mention, but she bought imitation handbags. Haha n kept saying imitation oso nice wat. Anyway, aunties r like tt rite? Enough of crap on my mum's trip. Haha c ya guys soon, I hope.

I cant believe I'm crying. I miss my mum. She went to Jakarta juz a few hours ago. I nv felt like this b4, except when I was young n I went overseas with my dad, w/o my mum den I cried la. But this time totally different. I really miss her. Too much. I realised my mum has suffered so much in her life to give her family a happy life. She did her best to give me n my sis the best. I appreciate it alot. Really. N becos so much has happened in my family, I feel the one who is hurt the most is my mum. So I hope this holiday for her will make her relax n free her mind of any sorrow. Though its juz a short holiday of 3 days, n tt she juz boarded the plane a few hrs ago, I already feel she's been gone for a long time. I cant feel the pain she suffers when she has to board the plane alone, with none of us with her, due to the time-clash with our work n school, n how she feels when she's all alone there. I really really hope she's gonna be fine alone there. Praying for her safety. Cant wait for her return on sunday. Mummy, I love you!

Syah n I were talking about being attached n making commitments. Hahaha den I realised the both of us somehow share the same fate. We get attached almost the same time n become single around the same time as well. Haha. Purely coincidental. Shan't elaborate on that. Tired. Last entry was Sat. Sat afternoon went to Suntec for the IT Show. Bloody hell! So farking crowded lor! My mum had to hold onto me cos she knows I will get lost for sure. The queue at Creative was super duper long. My mum naively thought it would be short n we would be outta there soon enough. But she was so wrong. She wanted to leave but I persuaded her to queue on since we were there. N furthermore, Zen Micro was so damn cheap! Wasted if I didnt get it. Beibei oso got 1. She bought white, I bought orange. Junxian oso bought but much earlier. He got green. Daniel oso. He bought black 1. Nice man. Multi colours. N Joey bought iPod mini. So jealous lor. Haha. Sunday was spent at home with both Eileen n Beibei coming over. We wanted to have lunch together. Contemplated on outside food but end up buying instant noodles n coming over to cook. How pathetic. But we liked it this way oso. Den watch vcd. Well, Eileen is gonna whine when she reads the next sentence. She offered to wash the dishes for me but she broke 1 of my bowls. Hahaha. Eileen, stop whining!! Haha luckily I not so petty to even ask u to pay me back for the bowl. Go break kenneth's ones n see how his mum complains. Hurhurhur. Monday no school. Boring day. Tuesday, or rather today, went school do pba proj. Damn sian. The codes juz couldnt work. Fed up. Ok. Pba sucked. Skip. Next, I had my iac presentation. Haha Mr Chan is so erm... funny? He aint like any other tutors. A lil crazy up there but overall ok. Headed home after that. Sleepy like hell. To all readers out there. Sorry if I bored u with my daily stuff. Good day to all! =)

U know what hurt the most after a break up?

1. It is when u have to start deleting the hp messages that he sent.
2. It is when ur computer has photos of u 2 taken back then, n u start to wonder where the smiles n laughter have gone to.
3. It is when u go to places where u 2 once were at together, n recalling those memories u both had.
4. It is when u smell a familiar scent n thought of the times he held u so close that u possessed his smell.
5. It is when ur frenz blurted out his name n u heard it, yet pretending u heard nothing.
6. It is when ur frenz asked "R u ok", n u have to say "I'm fine" even though u're not.
7. It is when u know u might see him somewhere, somehow, n he's holding another girl.
8. It is when u wan to treat him like a fren but he completely ignores u.
9. It is when u tell urself to move on but u're still stuck.
10. It is when u have to break the news to ur family who thought u 2 would be happy together.

U know what r the best things that happen to u after a break up?

1. It is when ur frenz r there to listen to ur problems even if they cant give advices.
2. It is when ur family stand by u as support in case u fall again.
3. It is when u still have so many other happy things to think about when u feel down.
4. It is when u r occupied with other things so u won't brood on the past.
5. It is when u finally realise he isn't worth ur tears n time at all.

Ok I'm done here.

Past few days were a blur. Skip. Syah n I both overslept ytd (Fri) morning n we decided to be late for maec together. So she came to bp n we had to take a cab to school together, due to the fact we were very late. So the both of us plus Carol entered class at 1.20pm. Mrs Ng wasnt nice to us. Haha if it weren't for her detailed teaching, I would have displayed my utmost not happy face. Tutorial ended. Syah n I went town. Ate fried chicken rice. Finally I had a taste of it. Syah eats it all the time when she's in town. Now I know y. Its really nice. Walked around town for so long. Went to so many levi's shops. Crapped with Lai Soon at oakley. Den crapped more with Syah. She juz wasnt herself. Haha. N I had so many so many mispronounciations lor. And Syah saw Fauzi when we to find Yaya, Fauzi's cousin. They talked. And Syah couldnt believe that she met Fauzi. I was thinking wat if I was her.. Lets say i met whoever somewhere. I bet I wouldnt even say hi. Haha. That's all I guess. Gd day to those who reads it in the day. Gd nite to those who reads it at nite.

Wat are parents teaching their kids nowadays?? I juz saw a mummy bringing her little son who is barely 5 years old to buy cigarettes ytd. The boy even knew wat brand his mummy was going to buy and he pointed to the shopkeeper. Worse was he knew how much it cost! Bloody hell! Wat happened to parents nowadays? Smoking and throwing vulgarities in front of their kids. No wonder teens now are so ill-bred. Though I'm a teen myself, I dun smoke or break the law or worse, consume drugs. I cant imagine I grew up with a smoking parent who doesnt even bother quitting it when both his daughters have asthma. Selfish, i call him. But den again, I cant do much about it. Cos its simply none of my business.

Happy Birthday... Tata

At this point of time, its my cousin, Aasta's, birthday. Though she isnt with us anymore, I still wanna wish her Happy Birthday wherever she is. I hope she's able to feel that I still miss her lots n lots. On Friday, after school, me n daniel went to meet kaixin. Supposed to be juz the 2 gers' nite out but i dragged dan cos the both of them haven met for a long time. And its been a long time since we took photos. Hahaha its been a long time since we wore the same colour too.. We really liked this photo.. Hehe.. We den hung out at coffeebean n talked like real long. About my family probs n everything. U know... Gers can talk about damn lot of stuff. But tt doesnt make us gossipers. We juz enjoy each others' company. =) Last nite, I was at my aunt's place celebrating my grandma's bday. We had dinner n cakes of cos. Bought 2 cakes cos 1 of my aunt doesnt eat durian so we had to buy 1 coffee flavour for her. How nice of us.. Haha. ***TA DA!!*** Cafe-nougat cake from Angie the Choice ($22.05) and Durian Fantasy from Emicakes ($48) Both were my grandma's birthday cakes. Nice rite.. Presenting the birthday girl and her grandchildren. Well, almost. Not all were present though. Kinda sad cos my grandma was expecting all to turn up. But at least she was happy we were there. And wat could I say? I tink my grandma still prefers me.. Hurhurhur.... Erm.. seems like the younger ones werent really enjoying themselves huh.. Me and my grandmama. Hmm.. Do we look any bit alike? I'm juz wondering how I would look when I'm 73 years old.. My 'baby' (initially) cousin, Daphne and I. I cant see her eyes!!! There goes my saturday. Spent with the family. N I'm glad I did so. =) Juz now, I met up with Desmond Tan (I have to put surname cos I know too many Desmonds) and we watched hitch. Hahaha tt guy ar.. Watch already den didnt tell me. Made me feel so bad. Anyway, the show is really funny. Hahaha go catch it. Nowadays juz too many new shows to watch. I doubt I'll be able to catch them all. Exams are a hassle. They are coming again. The weather is changing real drastically. Take care my frenz. And study hard for the exams.. Those no exams one, play as hard as u can!!!

It suddenly struck me juz how frenz of almost 4 yrs in the same sec sch as u treat u like a complete stranger when they r in a new environment like in poly. I was at the sch bus stop n I saw an ex classmate of mine back in cckss walking to the bus stop. I was very sure she saw me. All I wanted was to smile at her n most prob say a Hi-bye but she completely ignored me despite the fact that she saw me! I read this from a book that Syah borrowed n realised its so damn true. "Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for a while and leave footprints on our hearts. And we are never, ever the same." But I'm really glad that I still have good frenz who are willing to journey with me. Whether frenz or ex bfs... Im glad that u guys have come into my life and made me realise so many things that I never thought I would. Thank you!

At tis point of time, I'm still playing yahoo pool with Syah n chatting with Des in msn. And Im craving for brownie from splash. As well as fondue.

Wat did I say about 2005 passing very quickly? In less than 2 hrs, I'll be on my way to the airport to send Natasha off to the country with a big red dot in the center of a white piece of cloth, Japan. Well, all I can say is I'M GONNA MISS U!!!!! Take care my sweet lil darling n have fun! =)

I've got a very strong feeling that 2005 will pass so quickly. It's already March! Really fast lor. I'm glad. Cos I'm moving on. Let 2005 be a better year for me. The weather nowadays has been bloody warm n humid. The sun is still as scorching as noon at 6pm. N its driving me nuts! And I'm losing my temper so easily. I see a change in me. A change for the worse. And I'm afraid the new Me will take over.